Ugh, this is not a good day...

[ravensword]

For the third day in a row, I woke up with a headache. Right now the only thing that has me functional is my TENS unit working the spot just under my neck, and heavy doses of BOTH Tylenol and Ibuprofen.

Today I am working on this damn manual that has a ridiculous deadline. My frustration level is very close to "fuck it all and go home".

And, the coworker that went out on medical a few months ago (the one who was so sick and losing her shit mentally) is due back to work today, and they're moving her close to where I sit and I'm dreading it so very much. I do not want to get dragged back into her drama. I don't want to know about her family and her issues and all of that. I don't want to gossip about all the crap she's missed.

I want to hide in my cube and ignore the world exists and try to get this work done.

AAAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHH!

Okay. Now that I've got THAT out of my system...

1) What is one thing you look forward to every day?
2) What is one thing you dread?
3) What do you regret?
4) What do you fear?
5) What do you want?
6) What do you need?
7) What do you think about at night before you fall asleep?

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[yanzadracan.livejournal.com]

1) What is one thing you look forward to every day? Reading my e-newsletters, my RSS feeds (My Weight In Words is a fave) and catching up on my flist.
2) What is one thing you dread? Not having time to write 'my stuff'
3) What do you regret? Not going to college
4) What do you fear? The restrictions placed on me by a hip injury
5) What do you want? Financial security to do what I want & not what I need, and the time to expand my spiritual gifts to their fullest
6) What do you need? A hip replacement & to not let myself by ruled by my fears & insecurities
7) What do you think about at night before you fall asleep? To remember my dreams so I understand what's being downloaded, and what my spirit guides are telling me.

[badfalcon.livejournal.com]

you can hides in your cubicle, i gives you permission *nods*

1) Talking to you of an evening
2) The day I lose my mobility
3) Not paying attention in piano lessons when I was a kid
4) Losing people I need
5) My own flat, a new car, a holiday, a new musculo-skeletal system
6) enough money to pay my bills, affection, a good fuck
7) It varies - I try to think positive thoughts so my brain's in a good place for the night

[wickedladybear.livejournal.com]

1) What is one thing you look forward to every day? Honestly, it varies, but I almost always want to be making something, whether it's spinning (all new and exciting and SHINY) or knitting, or sewing, or even baking. I don't feel as good at the end of the day if I haven't worked on creating something.

2) What is one thing you dread? Talking to official people, on the phone or in person. I hate Doctors, Dentists, Lawyers and Government Agencies pretty equally.

3) What do you regret? Not going through college earlier, and not trusting myself to be smart enough to finish. And taking the damn job that I got injured by, stupid minimum wage thing that cost me mobility.

4) What do you fear? Becoming a real burden, or more of one, on family and friends, getting miserably sick and close to dying. I'd almost rather just die quickly, yanno?

5) What do you want? I want space that feel s safe to create in, warm, welcoming and empowering space that is mine.

6) What do you need? More energy, more physical strength and determination to get shit done.

7) What do you think about at night before you fall asleep? Usually I run through the things I didn't get done and fuss over them, mentally winding myself up in circles. I don't sleep well if something on the list isn't finished, and the lists are huge and complicated, because breaking things down into manageable steps is hard for me.

[lucdarling.livejournal.com]

1) What is one thing you look forward to every day? By the end of the day, taking my binder off.
2) What is one thing you dread? My best friends being grievously harmed for being themselves, since they live in a shit town.
3) What do you regret? I regret not being honest with myself, not speaking up.
4) What do you fear? That this is a phase in my life and I've irreparably harmed my reputation in the community I need to work in.
5) What do you want? Enough money to pay rent/groceries, a summer internship.
6) What do you need? To speak up more in class. To memorize for class.
7) What do you think about at night before you fall asleep? How warm my bed is (thanks to an electric mattress pad), how many hours there are if I fall asleep right now and when my alarm goes off, what I absolutely need to do tomorrow/appointments.