Welcome!

[ravensword]

So...you've come wandering my way ...and you think you're ready for the ride?



My friending policy is pretty simple. If you friend me, and I don't know you...whether from comments left in my journals or from common communities, etc...I won't friend back immediately.

I will visit your journal and check out your interests and such...maybe drop some comments on existing entries...and I'll expect you to do the same,...so that we can get to know one another, see? I'm a friendly sort, but I've had...experiences...and I am a lotmore protective than I once was.

If I come to your journal and find out I'm the only friend you have, I'm gonna get a little weirded out. And yes, it's happened. More than once.

If you're a regular commenter on any of my journals, or we encountered one another in person somewhere...expect I'll friend you back right quick...if I didn't get to you first.

If I do not friend you, please do not be offended. You are welcome to follow and comment on my public posts, whatever they may be. I've had enough bad experiences with people who clearly had access to my personal life to be more cautious.



Okay...that's out of the way. What's next?



For the most part I'm a pretty laid back person. But I am opinionated. I'm just usually of the opinion that my opinions are mine and feel no need to force any one to agree with them. Sometimes I rant here in this journal. Not often. But it happens. Push button issues: Food, Fat, religion, willful ignorance, personal responsibility.




I've been told my cussing can make a sailor blush. I doubt the veracity of that statement...but...I'll leave it to you to decide. I do cuss. I say shit, and damn, and hell and fuck. Yes. I like the word fuck. It's a very expressive word. You will see it from time to time here in this journal.

Also, I talk about stuff many people won't...the human body, sex, periods, blood, medical procedures...I draw the line at talking about my toilet habits and experiences...because we all have to have limits to how much we're willing to share in an online space, you know?



I have a sex filter that I almost never use. However I do talk about sex. I talk about being horny. I talk about getting laid. I talk about alternative sexual practices. I am bi-sexual and will talk about my sexual attractions to both genders. I am also polyamorous, so don't expect to hear stuff about my one true love or anything. Not happening.

I am also interested in BDSM and such, and I talk about it...about my reasons, about things that turn me on...sometimes just stuff I see or hear about. I do label and I do cut...so no one should ever have a need to read anything they don't want to...even if I don't filter.





How about the details of me?

I was born in 1968, in Jacksonville, Fla. My daddy was in the navy.

Lived in Upstate, NY from 3 to 18, then Precott, AZ for 4 months before moving to El Paso, where I lived until Dec 2000. Then we came to California. Northern California in the great San Fransico Bay Area.

I'm >40...I am mostly okay with that number. Largely because I like who I am.

5'2"-ish, with pale, freckled Irish skin and green eyes. My natural hair color has not been seen since I was 16. It is generally some shade of red...here lately it's been black with red or green streaks....and it has been known to suddenly become black or brown or blond. I'm thinking the streaks will go green soon.

Oh...yeah. I'm fat. Rotund. Obese. I'm somewhere around 260 pounds. No, I don't want weight loss tips. I know how to eat well and most of the time I do...but this is who I am. And I make no attempt to hide or disguise that. I am a fat, sexual, horny beast of a woman.

This is me...from a photo shoot for a fetish fundraiser...


I live alone in Northern California, and I make a decent wage at my job, more so now than ever before. Which doesn't mean I don't spend my money poorly. I do. I admit that I do. But I talk about money and not having money. I talk about saving pennies to travel. I love to travel.





1) Oh...that...yes, my given name is Natalie. My Pagan name is Amara. Amara has been my online moniker for nearly as long as I've been online. I answer to both, and often don't know how to introduce myself and let the people I am with do it for me. This new name is going to take some getting used to.

3) I am obsessed with Jeffery Dean Morgan. Of course, you'll know this if you read nearly anything in this journal. And Kane. Love me them Kane boys. And music of all kinds. Much of my travel has to do with music.

4) Despite all appearances to the contrary, I have moments where I am very, very insecure.

5) I despise people who are false, who are two-faced and use my friendship to hurt me at some point. If you're coming here under false pretenses, just use the door now.



Okay...that's enough for now I think. Talk to me...tell me about you. I'm leaving this at the top of my journal for a while...so folks can see it as they wander in.

Welcome to the crazy...

Comments

[siriuslyyellow.livejournal.com]

Hi! I am trying to make a complete list of all the Supernatural and Supernatural-related communities on LJ at spn_guidebook. Would you like me to include 6degrees_j3 on the list? The only requirement is that you link back to spn_guidebook on your user info page, either under affiliates or not, whichever you prefer. (This is so people can find spn_guidebook.)

I'd really like to have every community that includes Supernatural in this list, but I'm not going to put up communities without the moderator's approval. Please let me know if you'd like to be included.

Thanks a lot!

[ravensword.livejournal.com]

Hi...sorry it's taken me this long to get back to you.

I'm sure we'd be happy to join forces, but denyce is the primary mod over there. I'm just a part of things so that there's always someone available if we're needed.

I'd check in with her.

[siriuslyyellow.livejournal.com]

Okay, thanks for letting me know! ^.^*

[lori-leaf.livejournal.com]

Hiya, I adore your fic and comment on your other journal all the time. Hope you don't mind me friending this journal as well. *g*

[ravensword.livejournal.com]

Hi ya! Welcome to the crazy!

Feel free to make yourself comfortable...but do wear the safety belt...it can be a bumpy ride!

[cream-fudge.livejournal.com]

Hey to you!
After friending your fiction journal, I thought I should say hallo to your personal journal too.
Well hallo, here I am and I have to say Yeah to you! Me iz crazy pants too, but probably not as interesting as you. Since I discovered lj in March this year I'm still quite new to all the stuff and it's just the last three or four weeks that I'm getting more active as a participant.
I'm a sucker for horror movies and stories. I love to read. I like to kick ass literally (during my kickbox-training hours), but get my ass kicked way more often. What drives my husband crazy, because he's always afraid people might think, that it was him. Well, poor thing!
If I've got the money and time I love to travel around alone, with my husband or friends. No special preferences. No kids yet, maybe there will be a few in future times, who knows.
I've never had a real fandom before I started to watch supernatural last year in autumn. There were quite some series or movies I liked to watch, but getting obsessed by such thing (including some actors) is new to me. The writers strike brought me fanfiction. Yeah, funny, now I almost prefere fanfiction to the series (I'm wondering, if that has maybe something to do with all the NC17 stuff...). Apropos, I participated at your poll, so you know about my kinks. Albeit, most of them I live out only while reading(hopefully soon also while writing).
That's probably about it, at my profile is also a little bit of information to find. Plus, since this morning it's decorated with brand new handmade Alice collage and a beautiful Dean-eyelashes+lookingsadpic.
See you

[honeymull.livejournal.com]

Hi! Would you mind terribly if I friended you? I know I've never commented on this journal before, but I've meant to. I'm horrible at remembering to if people aren't on my flist, though. *blushes* But you just sound so much like someone I'd very much appreciate getting to know, and have on the flist for updates. If it's too weird, no problem! And no pressure to friend back, of course. You just seem pretty awesome. :)

[ravensword.livejournal.com]

Hi!

Welcome to my crazy. Feel free to friend me, comment, etc.

I like new friends!

[emerald-angel9.livejournal.com]

just stopping by to say hello as i've just friended you. sammynce rec'd one of your fics (a spike/sam/dean 3-some) because i wanted to read good 3-somes as i try to write my first one...

anyway i poked around on your profile and some posts and see we've got tons in common! i live in oakland, and i recently had surgery on my arm (radial tunnel release) and am doing my physio now, so i totally understand everything you're going through. i'm on worker's comp and in the past year have been at work for 6 weeks total. i don't know how you can support kids on the amount of money they pay, you must be a genius!

i just missed your birthday, so happy birthday!!

i also noticed that you've gotten something published by dark roast and i'm in the process of reworking some of my fics to submit to publishers and i know agt-spooky is also published with them. i'm curious about them and why you chose them... but i guess any or all of that could wait till i see if you even want to friend me or get to know each other, but we just seem to have so much in common it's scary.

hope your recovery is going well. i'm about 8 weeks post op and have pain on more days than not still and have half my forearm still numb or tingly after the surgery. ok sorry for rambling on here and typing you to death...

[ravensword.livejournal.com]

Greetings and welcome to the insanity!

I wouldn't say I'm a genius, we just have three incomes in this house, so that makes everything easier.

I have a ridiculous tolerance for pain, so while I still have pain and numbness, it isn't dreadful for me. Of course, many other people would think this level of pain was totally undoable.

Dark Roast Press. Well. That's a bit of a story. Suffice it to say I was recruited by a friend. My first with them Is "Rysykk's Rise" which is a sci-fi, future vampire story. My second is "In Service" which is a conversion of my fanfic RPS story of the same title.

So...welcome. Nice to "meet" you. I look forward to getting to know you.

[trueshellz.livejournal.com]

I love your hair colour!
Then again I love red hair in general
x

[ravensword.livejournal.com]

Welcome to the crazy!

I'm afraid I'm terrible of keeping track of names/user names and making connections. Which fic did you buy?

[ravensword.livejournal.com]

Hi ya!

I love red hair too! Mine is usually some shade of red. Though sometimes I randomly dye it black or blond or other strange colors.

[phouka-h.livejournal.com]

Hi Amara,
I'm pretty sure I'd meant to, but haven't, commented in your lj for fics and to thank you so much for the supremely gorgeous bound versions of your "Broken" and "Keeper" verses (current as of 10/07) from you at last year's Wincon. I was usually seen with cane in hand and too many bags to carry...I believe my hair was red at that time...a version of it anyway. I was so so happy we met and you were kind enough and (hopefully I wasn't too persistent in bugging you - I do have other lj friends...no stalker chick am I) you had the extra so I didn't have to choose just one! They're still among my favorite ever zines, and meeting you was a stand out experience for me. I meant to ask you prior to uh...this year's Wincon (which I unfortunately am unable to attend) if you were going to do the same this year and was hoping to have some use for my practiced "Sammy Puppy Eyes". Even though I'm one of the aforementioned "five who don't comment" 99% of the time - and I don't even write SPN (or any 'verse) fic, I still wanted to go and see everyone again but couldn't b/c 1) it ended up scheduled right between two previously scheduled cons announced when I was completely broke - especially for plane tickets - and 2) right when I decided that eating was optional and I would go to Wincon 08, dammit!, I relapsed. So between con insanity, and in constant SPN fandom catch-up mode I have spent most of this summer and fall in various stages of pain and numbness and difficulty getting around or even online *is relating to you now* and the only treatment time I was able to schedule (back in August) fell during this freakin' week and next, and Includes this weekend. I hope you all have a blast!! And write more! I'll be crossing my fingers that there will be a next year, and I'll go then. I'll just be here not in Baltimore :( catching up on more fic online...or I could re-read "Keeper"...

Oh...and your cursing is not nearly enough to make a sailor blush...speaking from my own experience anyway :D

[ravensword.livejournal.com]

Hi!

I remember you from last year. I think fondly of the experience last year, the whole thing.

This year I didn't do any printing/binding as I am very, very broke. What I did bring were cd copies of my published ebooks to sell (if I do, I might actually get to continue with that eating thing myself).

It's too bad you couldn't make it. We're having a really good time.

Wish you were here!

[phouka-h.livejournal.com]

So did you sell the CDs? I hope you did and that you had a really great time (and get to eat now). I missed everyone (that I just met once, but it was such a good time) that I see on the list who's going. I'm impressed, but not surprised you have your own ebooks. I need to get an ebook reader to carry such things around in. Plus my zillion pages of SPN fic printed out.

I like the icon. Was it to do with the Fic Idol contest? Or did someone really smuggle the guy in?

Cheers!

Seduced in panties

[malesego.livejournal.com]

You are intriguing!Would like to converse and exchange "ideas"I'm seduced by stocking covering flesh while latex add-on st raped to velvet bare mound of necturing tulips.Wooden paddles across pantie rear oiled.pinching spanking,swallowing,sharing and watching while crossing boundaries in a role of exchange.Tease me while you toy,dripping with desire.I obey desire

[monica-catch22.livejournal.com]

Howdy-do. I'm Monica (I met you at WinCon and gawked over you many SPN-Daddy shirts) and I read your daddy!kink stories and also do comment pron. I'm originally from the Chicago part of Illinois but now (for the past... 9, Christ I'm getting old, years) am in the Richmond-VA area, work at a weird job that's like a 411 service but don't ask because the explanation just confuses people, and am agnostic I guess... I dunno, raised in a Presbyterian household then found out I was bi and love it, and am still closeted at home from my church-bred parents. Sucktastic sometimes.

Anyway, friend me? -dangles cookies and JDM in Santa suit-

[rivestra.livejournal.com]

Lookie! I actually remembered to friend you like I said I should! (If the LJ name's unfamiliar, think waaaay back to dinner tonight, and you should be able to figure out who I am.)

I don't usually have much to say in LJ (though I'm trying to get better about that), so you might well hear more from me in RL. Someday, I will even manage to check out more of your fic, I swear. (Varkelton snuck Keeper onto my palm and I loved it, but your list o' stories is dauting!)

[ravensword.livejournal.com]

*waves blearily*

Welcome...I've been meaning to friend you for forever and everytime I sit down to LJ, I forget!

Yeah, my list o'stories is big and daunting, I'll admit. But, varkelton can point you to the stuff you'd like, I'm sure!

Merry Christmas and thanks again for having me over last night.

[moongirli.livejournal.com]

Hello!

I've wandered by from als_wonderland's Twitter stream, and it turns out, you know awesome people that I also know (Als, Miria, Faky, and Eboni).

You seem to be an extremely awesome personage that I should be reading. Hope to see you in LJland!

[sam22-2.livejournal.com]

Awesome! You seem completely awesome! I would LOVE to learn more about you if you'd let me!!

I am obsessed with Jensen Ackles. It sucks to all hell that he is too old for me (not that'd be the only problem...) In my journal I don't usually write a lot of my obsessions or about myself, for I am a bit shy and nervous at some of the people that friend me or I friend back because I don't KNOW them, but I make it a point to get to know them and I guess if you freek me out too much, I always have the option of deleting you. Hasn't happened yet though so *Keeps fingers crossed*

I am a blonde, but not a Bunny House blond (That was the movie right? lol) Though, I definetly do have my moments, so please don't be too impatient with me... I have had that happend to me before... Wasn't fun.

Gosh I am sorry, seems like I just keep on babbling on your files/comments. I will let you ask the questions if you want to know more!! Thank you again!

[ravensword.livejournal.com]

Hmmm...somehow I didn't get this comment in email. Strange.

Hi! I've sorta seen you around I think. Welcome to my crazy corner of the world.

Hope to get to know you!

[ravensword.livejournal.com]

Greetings, and welcome. Make yourself to home, comment, wave, dance...pass the cookies, have a cup of tea. Coffee's brewing.

I don't add back right away, I've had a few...strange experiences, and to be brutally honest, my friends list is insane to keep up with sometimes...but I love friends, so if it turns out you're one of those? I'll swing by and add you too.

Welcome to my crazy little corner of the world. Mind the random topic changes, gushing fannishness and occasional storm of rantiness.

[sam22-2.livejournal.com]

I completely understand!! No worries. It is usually worth the wait!! ^ ^ Yes my flist is crazy and I don't even have as many friends as you do XD Again, no worries!! I look forward to more of your stories soon!! ^ ^