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Welcome!

So...you've come wandering my way ...and you think you're ready for the ride?

My friending policy is pretty simple. If you friend me, and I don't know you...whether from comments left in my journals or from common communities, etc...I won't friend back immediately.

I will visit your journal and check out your interests and such...maybe drop some comments on existing entries...and I'll expect you to do the same,...so that we can get to know one another, see? I'm a friendly sort, but I've had...experiences...and I am a lotmore protective than I once was.

If I come to your journal and find out I'm the only friend you have, I'm gonna get a little weirded out. And yes, it's happened. More than once.

If you're a regular commenter on any of my journals, or we encountered one another in person somewhere...expect I'll friend you back right quick...if I didn't get to you first.

If I do not friend you, please do not be offended. You are welcome to follow and comment on my public posts, whatever they may be. I've had enough bad experiences with people who clearly had access to my personal life to be more cautious.

Okay...that's out of the way. What's next?

For the most part I'm a pretty laid back person. But I am opinionated. I'm just usually of the opinion that my opinions are mine and feel no need to force any one to agree with them. Sometimes I rant here in this journal. Not often. But it happens. Push button issues: Food, Fat, religion, willful ignorance, personal responsibility.

I've been told my cussing can make a sailor blush. I doubt the veracity of that statement...but...I'll leave it to you to decide. I do cuss. I say shit, and damn, and hell and fuck. Yes. I like the word fuck. It's a very expressive word. You will see it from time to time here in this journal.

Also, I talk about stuff many people won't...the human body, sex, periods, blood, medical procedures...I draw the line at talking about my toilet habits and experiences...because we all have to have limits to how much we're willing to share in an online space, you know?

I have a sex filter that I almost never use. However I do talk about sex. I talk about being horny. I talk about getting laid. I talk about alternative sexual practices. I am bi-sexual and will talk about my sexual attractions to both genders. I am also polyamorous, so don't expect to hear stuff about my one true love or anything. Not happening.

I am also interested in BDSM and such, and I talk about it...about my reasons, about things that turn me on...sometimes just stuff I see or hear about. I do label and I do cut...so no one should ever have a need to read anything they don't want to...even if I don't filter.

How about the details of me?

I was born in 1968, in Jacksonville, Fla. My daddy was in the navy.

Lived in Upstate, NY from 3 to 18, then Precott, AZ for 4 months before moving to El Paso, where I lived until Dec 2000. Then we came to California. Northern California in the great San Fransico Bay Area.

I'm >40...I am mostly okay with that number. Largely because I like who I am.

5'2"-ish, with pale, freckled Irish skin and green eyes. My natural hair color has not been seen since I was 16. It is generally some shade of ~~red~~...here lately it's been black with red or green streaks....and it has been known to suddenly become black or brown or blond. I'm thinking the streaks will go green soon.

Oh...yeah. I'm fat. Rotund. Obese. I'm somewhere around 260 pounds. No, I don't want weight loss tips. I know how to eat well and most of the time I do...but this is who I am. And I make no attempt to hide or disguise that. I am a fat, sexual, horny beast of a woman.

This is me...from a photo shoot for a fetish fundraiser...

I live alone in Northern California, and I make a decent wage at my job, more so now than ever before. Which doesn't mean I don't spend my money poorly. I do. I admit that I do. But I talk about money and not having money. I talk about saving pennies to travel. I love to travel.

1) Oh...that...yes, my given name is Natalie. My Pagan name is Amara. Amara has been my online moniker for nearly as long as I've been online. I answer to both, and often don't know how to introduce myself and let the people I am with do it for me. This new name is going to take some getting used to.

3) I am obsessed with Jeffery Dean Morgan. Of course, you'll know this if you read nearly anything in this journal. And Kane. Love me them Kane boys. And music of all kinds. Much of my travel has to do with music.

4) Despite all appearances to the contrary, I have moments where I am very, very insecure.

5) I despise people who are false, who are two-faced and use my friendship to hurt me at some point. If you're coming here under false pretenses, just use the door now.

Okay...that's enough for now I think. Talk to me...tell me about you. I'm leaving this at the top of my journal for a while...so folks can see it as they wander in.

Welcome to the crazy...

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Hiya, I adore your fic and comment on your other journal all the time. Hope you don't mind me friending this journal as well. *g*

Hey to you!
After friending your fiction journal, I thought I should say hallo to your personal journal too.
Well hallo, here I am and I have to say Yeah to you! Me iz crazy pants too, but probably not as interesting as you. Since I discovered lj in March this year I'm still quite new to all the stuff and it's just the last three or four weeks that I'm getting more active as a participant.
I'm a sucker for horror movies and stories. I love to read. I like to kick ass literally (during my kickbox-training hours), but get my ass kicked way more often. What drives my husband crazy, because he's always afraid people might think, that it was him. Well, poor thing!
If I've got the money and time I love to travel around alone, with my husband or friends. No special preferences. No kids yet, maybe there will be a few in future times, who knows.
I've never had a real fandom before I started to watch supernatural last year in autumn. There were quite some series or movies I liked to watch, but getting obsessed by such thing (including some actors) is new to me. The writers strike brought me fanfiction. Yeah, funny, now I almost prefere fanfiction to the series (I'm wondering, if that has maybe something to do with all the NC17 stuff...). Apropos, I participated at your poll, so you know about my kinks. Albeit, most of them I live out only while reading(hopefully soon also while writing).
That's probably about it, at my profile is also a little bit of information to find. Plus, since this morning it's decorated with brand new handmade Alice collage and a beautiful Dean-eyelashes+lookingsadpic.
See you

Hi! Would you mind terribly if I friended you? I know I've never commented on this journal before, but I've meant to. I'm horrible at remembering to if people aren't on my flist, though. *blushes* But you just sound so much like someone I'd very much appreciate getting to know, and have on the flist for updates. If it's too weird, no problem! And no pressure to friend back, of course. You just seem pretty awesome. :)

just stopping by to say hello as i've just friended you. sammynce rec'd one of your fics (a spike/sam/dean 3-some) because i wanted to read good 3-somes as i try to write my first one...

anyway i poked around on your profile and some posts and see we've got tons in common! i live in oakland, and i recently had surgery on my arm (radial tunnel release) and am doing my physio now, so i totally understand everything you're going through. i'm on worker's comp and in the past year have been at work for 6 weeks total. i don't know how you can support kids on the amount of money they pay, you must be a genius!

i just missed your birthday, so happy birthday!!

i also noticed that you've gotten something published by dark roast and i'm in the process of reworking some of my fics to submit to publishers and i know agt-spooky is also published with them. i'm curious about them and why you chose them... but i guess any or all of that could wait till i see if you even want to friend me or get to know each other, but we just seem to have so much in common it's scary.

hope your recovery is going well. i'm about 8 weeks post op and have pain on more days than not still and have half my forearm still numb or tingly after the surgery. ok sorry for rambling on here and typing you to death...

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I love your hair colour!
Then again I love red hair in general
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Hi Amara,
I'm pretty sure I'd meant to, but haven't, commented in your lj for fics and to thank you so much for the supremely gorgeous bound versions of your "Broken" and "Keeper" verses (current as of 10/07) from you at last year's Wincon. I was usually seen with cane in hand and too many bags to carry...I believe my hair was red at that time...a version of it anyway. I was so so happy we met and you were kind enough and (hopefully I wasn't too persistent in bugging you - I do have other lj friends...no stalker chick am I) you had the extra so I didn't have to choose just one! They're still among my favorite ever zines, and meeting you was a stand out experience for me. I meant to ask you prior to uh...this year's Wincon (which I unfortunately am unable to attend) if you were going to do the same this year and was hoping to have some use for my practiced "Sammy Puppy Eyes". Even though I'm one of the aforementioned "five who don't comment" 99% of the time - and I don't even write SPN (or any 'verse) fic, I still wanted to go and see everyone again but couldn't b/c 1) it ended up scheduled right between two previously scheduled cons announced when I was completely broke - especially for plane tickets - and 2) right when I decided that eating was optional and I would go to Wincon 08, dammit!, I relapsed. So between con insanity, and in constant SPN fandom catch-up mode I have spent most of this summer and fall in various stages of pain and numbness and difficulty getting around or even online *is relating to you now* and the only treatment time I was able to schedule (back in August) fell during this freakin' week and next, and Includes this weekend. I hope you all have a blast!! And write more! I'll be crossing my fingers that there will be a next year, and I'll go then. I'll just be here ~~not in Baltimore :(~~ catching up on more fic online...or I could re-read "Keeper"...

Oh...and your cursing is not nearly enough to make a sailor blush...speaking from my own experience anyway :D

You are intriguing!Would like to converse and exchange "ideas"I'm seduced by stocking covering flesh while latex add-on st raped to velvet bare mound of necturing tulips.Wooden paddles across pantie rear oiled.pinching spanking,swallowing,sharing and watching while crossing boundaries in a role of exchange.Tease me while you toy,dripping with desire.I obey desire

Howdy-do. I'm Monica (I met you at WinCon and gawked over you many SPN-Daddy shirts) and I read your daddy!kink stories and also do comment pron. I'm originally from the Chicago part of Illinois but now (for the past... 9, Christ I'm getting old, years) am in the Richmond-VA area, work at a weird job that's like a 411 service but don't ask because the explanation just confuses people, and am agnostic I guess... I dunno, raised in a Presbyterian household then found out I was bi and love it, and am still closeted at home from my church-bred parents. Sucktastic sometimes.

Anyway, friend me? -dangles cookies and JDM in Santa suit-

Lookie! I actually remembered to friend you like I said I should! (If the LJ name's unfamiliar, think waaaay back to dinner tonight, and you should be able to figure out who I am.)

I don't usually have much to say in LJ (though I'm trying to get better about that), so you might well hear more from me in RL. Someday, I will even manage to check out more of your fic, I swear. (Varkelton snuck Keeper onto my palm and I loved it, but your list o' stories is dauting!)

Hello!

I've wandered by from

als_wonderland's Twitter stream, and it turns out, you know awesome people that I also know (Als, Miria, Faky, and Eboni).

You seem to be an extremely awesome personage that I should be reading. Hope to see you in LJland!

Awesome! You seem completely awesome! I would LOVE to learn more about you if you'd let me!!

I am obsessed with Jensen Ackles. It sucks to all hell that he is too old for me (not that'd be the only problem...) In my journal I don't usually write a lot of my obsessions or about myself, for I am a bit shy and nervous at some of the people that friend me or I friend back because I don't KNOW them, but I make it a point to get to know them and I guess if you freek me out too much, I always have the option of deleting you. Hasn't happened yet though so *Keeps fingers crossed*

I am a blonde, but not a Bunny House blond (That was the movie right? lol) Though, I definetly do have my moments, so please don't be too impatient with me... I have had that happend to me before... Wasn't fun.

Gosh I am sorry, seems like I just keep on babbling on your files/comments. I will let you ask the questions if you want to know more!! Thank you again!

Hey there, I friended your fanfic journal awhile back, and have been stopping over here occasionally as well. I always feel a little funny just randomly popping into people's personal journals and starting to comment w/out introducing myself tho, so I figured I may as well get going on that. :)

No worries about the friending me back part, if it happens, cool, and if not... c'est la vie. I have only recently started to branch out to LJ friends outside of people I know IRL, so I totally understand the strange experience thing, trust me. Altho I have to say, I've just recently gotten into SPN in the past 6-9 months heavily and I love the people in the fandom so far.

As far as I go... I'm Lisa :) I live in Az, am slowly coming back to the world of fanfic and graphics after being out of it since XFiles and Buffy/Angel (lol, and Forever Knight... oh Geraint Wyn Davies!)

Anyways, I just wanted to say hey, so... Hey :)

Hi ... been reading the fic and thought I would comment here as well. Love the writing.....
Please don't be weirded out by my journal.....just started LJ, haven't written any fic, so I don't have a lot of friends - i have been very cautious about that....but i tend to make nice comments where i do go :)

Hi *waves*

I've seen you all over the place and you've added me on Twitter, so I thought I should get off of my arse and friend you over here :) The basics of "me" can be found on my profile page, but you've read some of my fics on

comment_fic so I think you know something about me already ;) So long as I can keep Chris, I'll let you have Jeff every time *g* Some things about me that you won't find mentioned on my LJ, or at least, not yet *thinks* my right nipple's pierced (not quite healed yet though :( ) and I'm overly intrigued in BDSM for someone who's ever mentioned it to anyone in RL.

charlies_dragon

Hiya! *waves* I wandered over here from comment_fic - just curious. Is there another journal/archive where your fic is stashed? I'd love to read whatever you've got. BTW, if you visit my lj, don't be disappointed. It's pretty slow going for me. I have one giant fic I'm working on for another comm, but it refuses to behave, currently. *Bad, bad fic. No biscuit.* Anyway - see you around.

Hey, thought I'd get off my ass and stop being stalker-ish. I totally forgot how I found your journal but I answered one of your prompts over at comment_fic a few weeks ago. And yeah, don't really expect you to remember me.

I think I read some of your daddy!kink stories first and then hopped over for a short look to this journal and sort of got stuck? Don't know, kind of happens to me often. *lol*

I have a problem commenting on posts because I'm never sure what to write, especially when it comes to commenting on fics because I'm always so late in reading stuff that it seems everything is already said and commented to death. But I really enjoy your stuff and I know from personal experience that writers can never get enough comments on fics. *g*

So just telling you that I added you here and on Twitter and now I'm going back to writing my J2 fic that stubbornly refuses to cooperate for the last few weeks. *waves goodbye*

You seem interesting and we have some things in common. I am just starting my LJ life and fully read your friend policy. I am going to add you but understand it will take you time to add me if you choose to do so. Come visit my journal if you like and maybe after some time passes you can friend me.

Best
ML40

Hello and salutations!

I've been a watcher/lurker of your fiction journal for many moons and I have recently been trying to make a concerted effort to actually comment on the fics and journals that I am following. Thus I figure a good step forward in that regard is friending those who I do follow!

A little about myself... I found your journal while looking for J3 fics and well, your whole Daddy!verse kinda jumped out and hit my kink buttons hard. I'm a kinky thing with little true experience in the field but I do know what I like and dislike which is often a good thing. I fell in love with JDM when he was on Grey's and well, him being on SPN just made my obsession with the show more secure. My journal is full of SPN rambles, rants on life, and day to day happenings. I'm slowly easing myself back into writing. I used to do it constantly but a few bad experiences shut my muses down and they are shy to show up now.

Cheers!

ps. Props for getting the authorities involved with your internet woes. I think that there are many of us out there who wouldn't know what to do, and now we do, if something like that happened. All in all, we are a young community that is unsure of our rights, but with those who are sure of them and are willing to guide others along and teach us all we become stronger and better able to protect ourselves. ... Wow, that just sounded kinda like a PSA. *shakes head and grins* I'm still not awake enough yet!

I lack imagination some days, soooo the RL name is the same as my LJ name.

I've been reading your writing for a long time. Met you, face to face... almost two years ago at Jenny's party. Finally got off my tuchas and friended your writing journal. Dude, I really am lazy about some things, aren't I? *hangs head in shame* Of course, now I'm getting around to this one. Sheesh.

So obviously, I ramble, which is why you will probably never see me on Twitter *g*. I think the character limit would undo me in less than a day. I'd say more, but I just got distracted by a guy in a gorilla suit who had to call the cops to come and let him in his car. *shakes head* Let's just end this by saying "some times Kat gets distracted by shi..."

umm, i just got around to reading this whole thing now and i know i friended you from the comment_fic but i don't know that i ever got around to introducing myself. ::smacks myself::

hihi, i'm Feather. i write all kinds of things in my journal, much more than anyone probably wants to know about me, but hey it's my journal right? i welcome comments and love to read your stories and journal in general. i'm very impressed with the way you handle yourself (i.e. what you posted recently about you and friends in the movie theatre) and hope to have the grace and self-assurance you do someday. i also have separate journal where i only post about sex, relationships and loves. if you want to read that one, email me. otherwise, i will try to comment more, cause i tend to read and have something to say and never say it. /end rambling

thank you for the cute snowflake cookie, snowflake is one of my nicknames. Wishing you the happiest of holidays too. your picture is very cute, by the way.
hugs from pb

Hi, I'm paley or paleogymnast, and I've been reading and enjoying your stories on your fic journal

phantisma for quite some time now (you've probably seen some of my comments).

I use LJ mostly for fic reading and writing, and had never wandered over to your personal journal before, but when I saw your journal updates locking your RPS (and I am a great fan of your RPS as well as SPN and Leverage stories), I figured I might as well come over here and friend you and introduce myself, and hopefully convince you that I'm not dangerous or crazy (just a big fan of your writing). I have just friended you, so that you'd friend me back. (If you can forgive the selfish motivation.)

I am rather paranoid about online postings myself, and as a result you will see that my LJ tells very little about myself (that's my solution for protecting my identity). But if you have any questions, please feel free to shoot me a PM.

Thanks and *hugs* I hope you can avoid any more online crazies trying to make your life miserable through twitter.

hello

well , let me say that I found your journal because I saw a rec of one of your fics Courtesan 'verse,which I canno read becuase I do not have access or something like that. lol
I new here , so I have no idea how this works.

anyway I read this post and you seen like an interesting person to meet. because my journal is in process I think is fair I tell you something about me , not sure if you are interested but I have nothing to lose right?

well my real name is Cris ,I am from Costa Rica.
English is not my mother tongue so I make a lot of mistakes *pout* I love reading fics , actually I spend a lot of time reading , because of my personality I dont have a lot friends , people just dont get my sense of humor lol. anyway I would friend you but you probably will freak out as my journal is empty.
see you around I guess

hello! hopefully im leaving this comment in the right place. new to fanfiction, scouring livejournal as well as other places for the best stuff, and i have found some surprisingly well written and totally exciting stories! love it. love it and have become so obsessed i read wayyyy too much, too often, to the detriment of other things in my life at the moment!

find your profile really intriguing. i know you said you have had bad experiences with readers, and i totally understand! i have written a few things, but not posted here...ummm, i dunno if i can say where they are, but they are on supernatural fanfic pages...im not sure what to do with livejournal...i guess i feel a little overwhelmed by it so far, but hope to post my few stories (and what i hope will be more in the future) here eventually, once i get the hang of it.

interested in reading your fanfiction, but if thats not comfy for you, i get that too! even if not, its been fun scoping out your page, you seem like a really interesting person...i love your totally open views and outspoken personality...i too am probably too open, tell people shit about myself that they probably dont need to know, but i just lay it all out there, cuz i dont feel like there is anything to hide. i like me, and once i say the things about me that i want to, if someone else doesnt, thats great, no harm no foul...they can move on.

so...nice meeting ya, even if this is as far as it goes!

fanfic love,
~shell
deansgirl369

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